Converting Bad Habits and Depressing memories into good experiences
My entire life I've been singing (or trying to sing), and it definitely has helped me with my intense bouts of major depression/anxiety. What I am noticing, however, is that as I undo a lot of bad habits I've developed over time, feelings of FULFILLMENT or comfort are going away. It's almost as if the singing habits I've leaned on, though harmful, were developed as a coping mechanism for my depression. So by undoing them, I am unraveling a lot my general emotional sense of comfort..for now. For example , In the past I have put tons of physical expression and energy into my singing, and INTENTIONAL pressure overall because it felt good. It was an invigorating feeling, which is rare in true bouts of depression. By undoing taht pressure, I literally feel as if something is wrong, or something is missing from my life. It is the strangest feeling, and is not merely uncomfortable unfamiliarity. It is quite intense feelings of there being an emptiness or void.
The point is this..habits are very much connected to our emotional state. Not just what the habits are, but the reason they were developped. And by changing them, the entire emotional spectrum may go up in confusing limbo. That's what I'm experiencing at least.