Saturday, May 6, 2017
Slept in today, didn't wake up until 5pm. Been waking up with a headache every day for the past week. If this continues I'm going to see a doctor for a check up. I'm pretty frustrated and annoyed because I've been trying really damn hard for the last week to normalize my sleeping patterns. I'm not sure what the hell is going on but it is starting to really piss me off.
Just ordered some nice equipment from Sweetwater Sound; it will be arriving next week. Three different microphones...I will most likely try them all and return two of them. I will be using a small room as my recording space...it's roughly 15 feet long by 10 feet wide. Not very big but it will do for me. I'm happy to be focusing on singing and writing music for the time being, and I'm inspired by my music, and my voice in particular. I think I have what it takes to record a great album, and all of my friends have been encouraging towards me.
I talked for an hour last night with an old friend of mine about my current situation. It helped to get my thoughts and feelings out. In speaking about things it helped me to come to certain realizations that have helped to keep me motivated in life. One thing to always remember is that you will find naysayers and critics in all areas of life. Every successful person has had to deal with that. You cannot expect to change them, so don't try. Follow your heart and your dreams, and if some people don't appreciate it, you have to just brush them aside and let them go off into their own world. There will be plenty of those who don't understand what it is you are doing, and it's useless to try to convince them.
I know a lot of friends who undergo serious depression or other types of mental illness. But others I know never experience anything like that. I have a hard time understanding how there are people who never feel pain or sadness in life. And yet they exist. It's a total mystery to me how this could be. Why some people are happy and why some are not is by and large not understood. Sometimes I feel envy towards certain people, not because of who they are or what they represent, but just because they are always feeling well, all the time. Given the state of the world and how mucked up things are I cannot understand how such people could exist.
That's all for now.