Not sure if this is in the 'Introduce yourself' section? Hope so.
I browsed thru some of the comments and found inspiration and courage to write. I'm WAY out of my comfort zone, but so OVER it with fear. I really took hold of Ken's You Tubes, but wasn't a fan of the 'forum' concept when deciding to purchase the program. Uploading a video of myself, WHAT ??!! Asking questions and putting myself 'out there' ??!! BUT, I'm encouraged, inspired and motivated watching others open up as this is a very 'vulnerable' place. Thank you all -
I started singing at age 7 or so. I was raised in and around the ent. biz in LA around the biggest names and talents. Instead of learning from them, it frightened me so to speak. I would go home an fiddle with our Fender Rhodes and sing. At times I would drill a line of a song, or a riff over and over and over again; my mother (not meaning to cause me harm) would shout out ' Shut up and let the record play!' I wasn't sure if I could sing or not. I just know I felt good in my 'space' - It wasn't till I was about 16 that I shared with a few that I wanted to sing. I then sang at my high school graduation and started to build some confidence. (Irene Cara, Out here on my own LOL) I had more positive experiences and feedback than negative, BUT the few negative ones put me in a shell and imprisoned me in fear. I also didn't welcome the positive because I knew that I was 'cheating' with my singing and I wasn't singing to my full potential. If I couldn't hit a note, or couldn't hit it IN FRONT OF SOMEONE, I would find a way to run and riff and skate around it ...hence, cheating. I would always sing 'safe' even alone, unless I was just in a real 'free' place in my head. It was so frustrating, I stopped singing altogether about 20 + years.
I had a chance meeting with someone who came into my occupation and as we had small talk I revealed I ‘USED’ to sing – he played guitar, bass and keys. I sent him a song I wrote and recorded a million years ago, ‘rough’ and he thought it would be fun to just play with music. Until he came up with the bright idea to put a band together. WHAT?! I don’t sing anymore. Ok, so I’m singing now I guess – Yikes!
At 47, ½ way thru my life, I don’t want to cheat anymore, not thru a song, a line, no, I want to be authentic and true. I want to squash my fears, I want to be able to say I am a singer and mean it. A couple immediate goals would be to re-record and sing live the song I wrote as noted above for my anniversary and to grow in this band (I did very little live and mostly in studio in the past, so I am really freaked out just sayin’). THANKS KTVA !
Few Questions / concerns: I hear an hour a day – this is how I am approaching that hour, please advise if it is productive. I go thru Audio Studio workout 1-7 twice. Note - #’s 6 & 7 (Vowels and Sliders) are challenging so I isolate those and go back to watch Ken and Gabriela and also the lesson explanation and then go back and re-try. So, basically I am NOT straight singing for the hour as I am watching listening an then trying out. My plan is to stay with this for next two weeks or more if need be and then I will gather the nerve to send a video in to see if I can move on. I have not gotten to the main audio work out at all. Ok, feedback please ? Thanks so much -