I thought perhaps we could open a topic about God and spirituality, if that's alright.
I am someone who is searching to find God in my life. I have been praying a lot lately, and trying to connect myself to Him. I understand Ken is a very passionate Christian, and I know tons other people who are the same way. One of my best friends is a very strong God believing man, and whenever I talk to him I always get the feeling that he's connected to some kind of higher spiritual realm and that God's presence is speaking through him towards me. He's just a very bright, positive, friendly person, and ever since I met him my life has gotten so much better, honestly.
There are several barriers I have to become a believer. First, being a very musical person, I consider that to be the source of all goodness and happiness in life. I consider music to be my religion honestly. With that, I don't see or understand why I need God in my life, if I already have my music. Of course it's possible that God may be the one behind all of it, allowing me to have this love for music. Certainly that is possible. But, since I am looking to actually connect with God and live my life accordingly, just knowing that he might be behind it doesn't really help me. Furthermore, the music I love and write has messages such as "seek independence, distance myself from submission" - a lyric that I relate to and have a deep appreciation of. Surely that is not what God wants, is it? Can I be independent and yet still be a believer? I don't know, but I've been told by believers that my music is a form of idolatry, which is a sin, and which is something God does not approve of. So it seems unlikely that he would be behind it.
However, I also have come to realize, sadly, that I am not strong enough to be the person I want to be on my own. It is because I have been broken down and have gone through a life crisis in 2015 that I began to beg God to come and help me. I was really desperate and I really needed help. And I have gotten help, through the people I have met, who have done wonders for my well being. But again, I attribute this all to the success of my MUSIC. So it really seems to me that if God is answering my prayers, then he is doing so in this way.