I know I can do it, well....I hope I can, well, please God help me sing!
How to be confident and sure of your vocal and performance abilities and untapped potential when it isn't good enough yet? I haven't been singing for years, actually, just about 5 yrs so even though I'm an adult, I guess, vocally, I am immature. I'm sure not one of those amazing young vocal prodigies who start singing and jaws drop to the floor and everyone raves & compliments and say things like, "Wow! You were born to sing! You are amazing! What great tone! What pipes! etc! etc!" Far from it. I'm middle aged. In Hollywood terms, I'm quite, even too late, to start all this. Am I crazy? Delusional? Well, I have these "young" dreams and I want something so much I can taste it. There is a persistent voice inside my soul, I think, that keeps repeating, "just because something is above your current reach or outside of the usual path, does not mean it is impossible. Keep at this and whatever you do, don't give up!" That is easier said than done sometimes. Keeping a positive attitude is easy when one receives regular compliments and things are falling into place. Try keeping it up in the face of rejection, criticism, disappointments, missed opportunities and vocal frustration. That's when you wonder if you are truly persistent and focused or just unrealistic and crazy. The only way I have come up with to deal with all these thoughts and emotions is to decide to take another chance & put my trust, full efforts and sometimes fragile ego into a training program. I want to sing really well, lead, in a band, every weekend. It seems like it should be doable.